I did it!

Conquered the road and finished the race, guess what position I got?

11th DUDES!!!

last year I got 10th, which was gold, this year 1 person run faster than me, and I got silver wa lao ehs….

This morning I ran with Yi Jian(2-1 guy, gd fren) all the way, from start to finish, Last year he was 9th and I was 10th, this year I was 11th, he was 12th, lol, last year both gold, this year both silver.

The track at the japanese gardens was super long, 4.2km, starting, most 2-2 people rushed, then later I overtook most of them. The run was madness, CROSS COUNTRY RUN, as I was running, I felt super tired, but I wanted to win so I didn’t stop, I kept on running, I ran and ran and ran, till the point my sight was blur, I felt as if I was going to faint, I wanted to purposely fall, injure myself and give up…. but I told myself: DON’T BE A COWARD SHITHOLE!  KEEP ON RUNNNING, DO NOT GIVE UP UNTIL THE VERY END! GET THE MEDAL AND PROVE TO EVERYONE THAT YOU’RE NOT WEAK! CHIONG AH!!!!

then I continued running, the track was damn long, but I never gave up, I wanted to, but I didn’t, I kept on runnning, till my legs were almost failing me, till my lungs could not take it, till my body could’nt take the heat, till my mind was giving up…..

When I saw the finishing line, I told myself: SPRINT TILL THE END DAMMIT!!! EVEN IF YOU DIE IT DOSEN’T MATTER!!

till the last 100m, the teacher there said : RUN RUN! GO GO! YOU CAN DO IT!

Yi Jian told me to go on, his heart was in pain, so I said: YOU MUST CATCH UP! then I sprinted towards the finishing line…..I got through the end, took my position card….11th, haha……a grin on my face, then my mind fainted, mind lost conciousness…..but my body continued moving, went to write my name class and register no. onto the back of the card and gave it to the teacher….YES, I’VE DONE IT, I CONQUERED 4.2 KM!

I went to the hut to assemble, I sat down and immediately, fainted backwards and closed my eyes telling myself: I did it, I overcame myself….

Then weiwen came over, wanted to get my drink coupon from me to help me get drink, haha…..Then as I saw my friends….I would go over, then high five them, and did the “brother” action, and asked what position he got, lots of hugging  just now, kinda gay, but brotherly lehs.

We sat down rested ourselves, and I was damn happy I didn’t give up…….. I was thinking about this phrase the whole time…

“pain is temporary, but glory is forever….”

before the race, I told myself that even if I died, I would still complete the race…..

and I remember elson kept calling me “weak” “no standard” “loser”…….in the end he got 20th…..I didn’t want to insult anyone, so I just used actions to prove myself…..

then prize giving, I got my 11th place silver medal, I was so happy……then the team event, those who got 40 top-places would get points for the class……when they read out: 3rd place!…..(can’t remember what class), 2nd place! we all thought it was our class, but in the end….: 2.5!!! then…1st place, 2-2!!!!!

“WWWWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO” went the class, it was one of the happiest moments of my life…….I almost cried sia….went up, got the certificate of 1st place, CHAMPION!!!!

The best photo ever…..

after eating at Jurong Point, I sat 30 home, I was so tired, I slept in the bus till vivo, then sat back to my house. I walked into the shower, showering  with ICE COLD WATER, BEST SHOWER I EVER HAD, DAMN REFRESHING…..

But now, my body pays the price, my hands for some reason, are aching like mad, my legs are hurting, toes with blisters, but it was all worth it. Cause of my beloved blog, I’m staying awake even though I’m at my limit alread…so now….Goodnight everyone……

I did it….

Ants in my tummy…

talk abt it later, today, go class, WA! HISTORY CLASS TEST AH!!! BUT, luckily it didn’t need studying, only inference skills, I wrote quite alot so….I think I’ll make it, then next half of the lesson was to split into groups for history project, I with zhenhao, then zhenhao pulled in xuanguang, he’s kinda retarded so it may be abit problem but since zhenhao wan him, just let lor.

We needed 2 girls, cheryl and amanda say come our group, amanda quite reluctant to join. then jiayi group wan me to go cause elson and junjie had other group, so I was like a 3rd choice ( i feel so lame…), then zhenhao and jiayi started pulling my both hands, like going to tear me apart, I wanted Jinghui and Jiayi to come cause I can communicate with them at least. amanda like shy shy liddat. So in the end, Jiayi was forced to team up with tzemin, and guess what? SHE CRIED CAUSE SHE WAS PAIRED WITH A USELESS PERSON, liddat only cry… then when it was chinese class, “RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” WOOT!! its the fire drill!!! so again, took lead which was fun, then go to field assemble, arranged everyone, then elson and gang went to get into trouble with 2-3 guys, then Elson call backing from 2-7 (paikia class), matthew(fren) and wangkang (gangster) come stare at 2-3, then they all scared, then go back class, elson go tell wangkang,” thx for helping me.” then wangkang say,” WA LAO EH! IF I KNOW I HELPING YOU I DON HELP LIAO!”

Then had geog, all I can rmb is chocolate chocolate chocolate! Mrs Loh gave out chocolates to the class, she rocks! Cadbury somemore.

Then went to science centre, there was this forensic lesson( like find the murderer thing). SUPER LAME, there were 4 suspects, I saw the pics, I said,” this busted is the noob murderer.” then we went through the whole lame thing, and guess what, my guess was spot on! lol, then let us off, freedom time, we went to play this spinning thing, like spin how fast can go up,  Bangsong spin 1.5 secs, elson 1.4, then bangsong 1.3, at that time looked impossible to beat, then I went up, lol 1.2secs, then noone can beat, then everyone say tyco, I did again and 1.2. 3 times 1.2, all skill.

Then go macdonalds eat, lining up, alot of ppl saying,” lend me money” then I lend Junjie $5, elson 50c, zhenhao 50c and xuanguang 20c, nabei tmr they better pay back. Then surya say,” someone blanja (treat) me $2.” then no one, then martin wanted me to but ice cream 4 him, then I ask surya cause he only buying 1 burger mah, so easier, then he went to buy, then he said,” WHAT KIND OF A FRIEND ARE YOU? PPL ASK U BUY U DON WAN.” he was pissed and ran off. I don’t know why he was so pissed….maybe cause I don blanja him….

Then I sat down ate then surya walked this way, to make things less awkward, I asked,” how u going home?” then convo, then I shared some of my fries with him, so he cooled down a bit.

Came home, tuiton and piano, now damn tired, going sleep.

AND WHY MY TUMMY GOING DIE, I FEEL SO NERVOUS ABOUT TMR’S CROSS-COUNTRY, Elson I dunno why, keeps insulting me, say dunno what I weak, no substance or something, So I’m gonna run like mad man, get top 10 i hope. Its this burden to get top 10 that makes me nervous…..hiya i go sleep now, it would be best if it would rain tomorrow, so….

PLS AH GOD, MAKE IT RAIN TOMORROW, AND I’LL LOVE YOU LOTS.

I better go sleep now, in case it dosen’t rain, hope it does…..anyway….wish me luck!

Gonna be music boi

I found a harmonica in my dad’s “history place”, its like some place where all the ancient history stuff my dad used to use is stored. I found a massive stamp collection, harmonica, guitar, music notes! my dad was a music guy last time, now he’s gonna teach me the harmonica and guitar lol. Its damn interesting to see my dad’s past stuff, like photo’s grades! everything since a little boy, damn cool.

hmm……i’m stressed now and I don’t even know what the hell is stressing me!!! Its like a have a feeling something REALLY REALLY bad is gonna happen…..I feel funny…..and these days I’ve been knowing more strangers, from school to internet.

Today elson kinda fought with 2-3 guys, just push push only, then elson like give innocent face say,” he start leh.” He dunno how to fight lol hahas.

sian ah, now gonna get ready 4 tmr, byes~

What’s this wierd feeling…

I just cleared my homework debt….it felt shiok at first but now I feel something’s missing…as if I have another stack of homework waiting for me or something…I just don’t feel right…

My love life has been full of confusion, in the past like when I was p4-p6, I was pretty much a nerd, guai kia (good boy), didn’t look too good.Then at that time, was the peak of people telling me,” I like you.” and during valentine’s day or my b’day, presents and stuff would automatically flow in…..now….like not even 1 seh…lonley lonley….

Seriously ah, I can’t figure out what’s going on the minds of girls these days. Girls go for gays and sissys, or really really pai kia (bad boys), their tastes I can’t figure out….

Today morning, Elson as usual, was flirting with Weiwen and Jiayi. Mostly boring stuff…..got people to help me with my 30 times copy 课文 (chinese stories), yesterday night I copied till halfway there was a sound, like a bug being squished, small and fast “psst!” I looked at my thumb, then part where the line is, the blister there burst, kinda cool, then went to bandage it up and continued. Those who helped me copy, Zixiang (15 times), Weiyang (1 time), Zhen Hao (1 sentence….) and myself, 13 and finished up zhenhao’s 1 sentence.

Had fire drill exercise, I’m the chairman so had to lead the class to assembly place, but I kinda forgot the route to go and the others all shouted,” THERE LAH!!!” and they laughed for dunno what.

it was quite fun actually, then went to NYAA dancing, wa lao, why we so sway this year do the lame shit bollywood dance….i wan do hiphop, more fun, easier and nicer….

After school….had badminton, went for 30mins, played with sathya, he has this “i wan to lose” mentality so everytime I got paired with him for doubles, sure lose….sian ah, then I told Mrs Leong I had flu and needed to see doctor, she then told me to follow her to staffroom take umbrella, but she didn’t have, so she wanted me to take 1 from the general office, but i didn’t cause too troublesome.

Then went to commonwealth MRT, saw Pamela there but she didn’t see me i think, she was with this taller guy. so I continued to my dad’s office, seriously bigger than before, even had the thumbprint scanner thing to go into the office, seriously cool.

dad brought me to doctors, both of us had flu so yeah, saw doctor, got medicine, dad paid like $48 bucks, me 22, dad 26. went home, ate, showered, slept on couch for 1-2 hours, damn tired, dreamt about this china girl Lijie that I had a crush on from P3-p4, cause she went back to china at p4……damn sad sia….didn’t even say goodbye….still remember I gave her a pikachu on…the last day I saw her….wa……I wan cry sia……

But have to move on…..now i’m sitting here, worrying about future scolding’s I think I’ll get….

I’m gonna go do school stuff now….

ENDLESS HOMEWORK?!?!?!

Let’s start from this morning, 12am, I went to sleep, had a dream…..and as you know, dreams have no logic at all.

I was at my grandma’s house with her (wierd eh?), dunno doing what, then say goodbye then go to lift, then in the lift, she said,” you better wear a nice shirt ah.” then i asked why, she said,” going prom mah.” then I looked at myself, wow, I’m taller! and I’m 16 years old! I looked at the mirror in the car that i own (okay…extreme), wow.

Then I go home, change to my $1000 dollar dining outfit (madness…), then drive car go pick her up. Then on the way I driving suddenly the car explode (lol) then I woke up and my left lower part of my leg had a FREAKING CRAMP!!!

I grabbed onto my left leg, tried to massage it, and I felt that it hard on the left side and super soft on the right (kinda gross that feeling). THE PAIN WAS EXHILARATING, IT WAS SO PAINFUL AND I COULD’NT DO ONE SHIT. ALL I COULD DO WAS LIE ON THE BED, GRAB ONTO MY LEG AND HOPE FOR IT TO GO AWAY. Then somehow….I “fainted” I think, not sure, can’t remember what happened next….

Woke up with a stinging pain on both legs, cause badminton training the previous day really took toll on me….I jumped off the bed and fell to the floor, face almost slamming the floor, luckily my hands broke my fall and I was on a push-up position. I pushed myself up and stood on my legs, they were like jelly, shaking like madd. I walked to the toilet and showered and brushed teeth and yeah normal stuff to get ready.

Then I wrapped both my legs with bandages, only that its medical bandages that heal internal injuries. I went to fencing…..

Fencing jingwei didn’t come cause he had appendix and needs to rest. So fencing was boring much, then Me and marcus went to foodcourt to eat, we talked about stuff, marcus was mostly spastic, kept talking about girls and stuff. He’s a super flirt, and I found out some secrets about him today, but as promised, I won’t tell. he didn’t tell me, I accidentally found out, and now he’s probably at the music fare thing, flirting with girls from other schools…

Boys schools……the boys all very despo to have stead, I’m in mixed school so I dunno how it feels to be deprived of girls at school. Marcus also told me that Trudy (girl in fencing class) is cute while Stephanie (another girl in fencing) is hot. hmm….marcus’s standards are much lower than mine so I’m not interested in girls at fencing. lol….He asked trudy out for a movie a few days ago, but trudy rejected him by dao-ing(ignoring) him. then he asked me,” have you ever asked a girl out before?” then I thought……surprisingly….no….neither have I hugged or kissed a girl before.

How to say this…..My standards are quite high….

1) the girl must think that flirting and flirts are noobs, and does not like to flirt, a little is still okay (just this i’ve eliminated maybe 1/2 of the woman race)

2) the girl must have a kind heart, eg. would let a seat out to an old person, handicapped or pregnant person, when she sees a beggar she’ll give him or her some money. (another 1/2 eliminated)

3) dosen’t go for 名牌货 (branded stuff), not a spendthrift (maybe 80-90% gone)

4) pretty, I don’t like the word “hot” ( 1 in 100)

5) isn’t loud, like shouting all the time like a bitch. ( 1 in 1000)

6) isn’t emo all the time (1 in 10000)

7)isn’t a nerd (1 in 100000)

dosen’t have a bitchy attitude (1 in 1000000)

9) sensitive maybe (1 in 10000000)

10) isn’t a rich pampered person, rich is okay, but pampered and slutty is not. (now legendary….)

I dunno if such a person exists in this world……no one is perfect… the girls I used to like dosen’t have at least 3 or 4, all of em don’t have requirement 1 and 2. My expectations too high….but if I ever meet a girl like that….

CURRENTLY, no one i like, haven’t found my other half yet….

I think I’ll go do my 10kg homework now…..

byebye….

madness

oh my god…..finally…..got through filing week, YEAH!!!! can’t believe these days I like nerd…..stay until 6pm everyday this week at school just to do homework and filing, and it totally sucked, I felt like a no-lifer. Read notes, went to internet just to find info on hw…at least its over now….but monday will eventually come and suck the hell out of me again…

SO, I should just…continue being a nerd….

these days, thinking about some stuff……you noe girls? I suddenly think,” hmm…..girls always flirt even though they already belong to someone……cannot really trust…..hmm…..”. okay, random….

(this part was removed cause elson angry I talked about personal stuff…)

hmm……tmr fencing…..dunno if the 2 going, cause kel has judo so 100% not going, marcus lim and jingwei not sure…..

yeah and today is KELVIN’S B’DAY!!! So happy birthday kel, may all your dreams come true.

now, I’m going to dramatically faint onto my bed which I have only touched for 10 hours this week….(2 hours sleep a day….)

okay….. rock on…..night…

Let me get through 1 more day….

Friday left…..and now, FOR SOME REASON, SUDDENLY MORE HOMEWORK THAN YESTERDAY EVEN THOUGH I CHIONG-ED FINISH LIKE LOTS ALREADY….

I have to endure 12 more hours at school, and alot can happen in 12 hours….

Today, many many people pissed me off…..and those that usually piss me off didn’t.

Today, as the chairman (shit…), I had to go get the history worksheets cause Ms Yeo the history teacher didn’t come to school today. Then the worksheet was like….hiya, don wan to do lah. then Michelle was collecting the worksheets and homework, I didn’t do both….so I told her, then wierdly, she very politely said,” oh, never mind, later you put in Ms yeo locker can liao.” usually she would shout at me, this time wow…. Then next lesson was Chinese, MRS LEE YI LIN DIDN’T COME TO SCHOOL TODAY, TOTAL WOOTS!!! and so I had to go get worksheets again…..cause I was so busy, I asked xian min the chinese rep. to get the worksheets…..this is what happened…

Me: hey xian min, can go get the chinese worksheets? I very busy..

xian min: YOU ARE THE CHAIRMAN YOU GO TAKE LAH!

me: pls…

xian min: WA LAO EH! YOU CHAIRMAN LEH!!! FASTER GO LAH!

me: you so kan jiong you go take can?

xian min : *gives the bitchy china woman irritated look, GO AND TAKE LAH!!!

me: *had enough, mai ka lim pei kpkb ah….

xian min: HUI FANG! (vice.chairwoman.) go take the worksheets!

huifang: I not chairman leh, chairman go take lah!

xianmin: ya lor!!!

me: ma de…..chairman not people ah!? HUH!? wa lao eh, everything chairman chairman, got good thing I sacrifice myself give you all, and this is how you fuckers treat me!?

all silent…..

then I stormed out of the class to get the worksheets…

Then had art, Ms Ng, the handicapped teacher which I really hated alot had a talk with me…

ms ng: why you never pass up all the art piece?

me: i….don’t like art…

ms ng: okay come here, lets have a talk….

then she told me many stuff which I can’t remember now but at that time, really inspired me, and I started to actually like art…

then after the 15 min talk, I went back to class…..everyone scolded me,” you suck! sk you suck, shenkai sucks!” damn you all know how hurting  it is….and whats more…I didn’t do anything…..

then I saw zixiang mouthing,” fucking noob chairman.” I couldn’t control it anymore, I walked over, GRABBED ZIXIANG’S COLLAR AND SAID,” SAY AGAIN?” then he struggled but for some reason, the anger gave me a power boost, and I felt stronger than normal, then I ripped his uniform till the top button tore off, and he had to use safety pin to tie it back, then he still continued to mouth stuff, I warned him,” you wan more button’s to drop issit?” then he wanted me to pay him back or else he call police and tell teacher. I pointed at him and said,” you have the balls to say it then go do it!”

then i sat down and continued being a guai kia, doing my hw and filing my stuff….

tonight, if i sleep, I no hope liao, so must stay awake and finish all hw…..

I hate filing…

This week is filing week, meaning, digging up all our past worksheets and assignments and notes and stuff and file em all up into a file. And it totally sucks, all homework and corrections MUST be completed. And I can’t believe I threw away my english notes last month….I forgot all about filing….anyway, wtf is filing for….

We file our stuff in, no one really opens the file later on to revise the contents in it, so filing is practically a waste of time….

lol, dunno why posted it, just watched it cause my bro was hogging the tv, its damn cute sia…

and these days…..the guys in the class have been arm-wrestling, hand standing, to see who’s stronger…….I have no time for these stuff cause I HAVE A **** LOAD OF STUFF TO DO RIGHT NOW….

okay i’m getting back to work, and thx jw for praying for me.

LIMIT IS REACHED….

Today has been the maddest stress day EVER! I slept at 4am just now in the morning, woke up at 6am, then I had my day planned out…

plan A) get so friggin tired that i’ll faint in school, then everything is okay.

plan B) during school be like damn tired and dizzy, then can go home..

plan C) call dad bring me go doctor, all okay liao…

but in the end, I didn’t do anything, I went to school in morning, how to say, I would at random times “faint” like suddenly no energy left and faint, and my world was spinning. but still…hiya I dunno wad to say..

After school, Mrs Lee is the one that pissed me off most (chinese teacher). She’s like pregnant….her face so fucking black who wan marry her and fuck her sia….her attitude is like shit sia. Whole day scold scold scold, then give like fuckload of homework expect me to finish, now I wanna faint……she sucks…..but…the more I make her angry, the worse her baby will become, so, meaning, her baby will be like ugly and stupid if she’s angry, if she’s happy, the baby cute and smart, so yeah, i’m like cursing……

I feel damn evil…..sry for foul language, freaking stressted now….I bet my  life i not sleeping tonight….so much homework must finish tmr….wtf….

If I die will anyone cry?

I’m asking cause I really feel like jumping off a building. I know I’ve said this many many times, this time, its real… I HAVE A FUCK LOAD OF HOMEWORK IN FRONT OF ME AND I WANNA KILL MYSELF.

This may be my limit……I going to ki siao already, maybe tomorrow I not going school….my whole world is spinning, I wanna die…

yesterday I went fencing, no 3 other brothers, only got marcus foo, so it was BORING. Then ate myself, emo. Went to MRT, went home, madness. Showered, slept cause stomach ache, head ache, feeling damn hot and cold, wanna vomit. At 3pm i fainted onto my bed, and woke up at today, 3pm…can say 24 hours I in coma…..I only woke up for toilet….Now I’m gonna faint, energy is being sucked from me…I heck care all homework….

I feel like vomitting now….I feel what I really hate….being EMO.

I DON CARE ABOUT STUFF RELATED TO SCHOOL AND STUDY. WHAT I WANNA DO NOW, IS SLEEP….

i go into coma now….night….