I hate myself, I really do…

My life is damn suckish now….I feel like dying. Today lesson part was okay, not much stuff that pissed me off. The entire morning, I was thinking about only 1 thing, the badminton match against Greenridge. When it was 12.30pm, we the badminton C bois, ate, changed, went onto the bus to Fuhua. Then there we saw our coach, he then made changes to the lineup that hammenath (sec 2, DSA, pro) made for the team, then hammenath was super pissed with the coach and didn’t want to play, but the coach still put him as 3rd single. I was playing 2nd doubles even though I’m a singles player.

Matthew was up first, he lost to this greenridge guy, that guy was like a paralysed person lol….

Then next was elson and jiancong….they won eventually.

next was Jerry, sec 1 DSA, he thrashed the guy, that guy was wearing bilabong shorts lol….

next was me and youfu…..actually we could have won…but due to youfu’s surfing “proness”, we lost 5 points due to that…and the 2 shorties from greenridge found his weakness…he has no footwork….so yeah….first set we lost, 2nd set, we were losing 14-19, but I, very miraculously, surfed 4 balls that the opponent couldn’t catch, and got the score to18-19, then we lost a ball, so the score was 18-20, then I smashed and got back 1 point, so 19-20….youfu was up to surf…he surfed…and it hit the net…..meaning…we lost….and I was damn pissed with him….

then the aggregate score was 2-2…and hammenath, luckily he showed the coach attitude, so he played the last match….he was the game decider. We watched as he played, and cheered everytime he scored. then 2 balls, which were supposed to be in, the FUCKING MALAY HONG KAH NOOB LINE JUDGE WENT TO SAY IT WAS OUT, EVERYONE KNEW IT WAS SHIT IN, DAMN MALAY BASTARD…

my team shouted ,” OI FUCKING CHEEBYE LARH!! IN LEH!!” ,” WA LAO EH! pa jiao ah!? (blind)” “KELONG AH! (bribed)KAYU AH! (NOOB)” then i went to shout,” OI FUCK NOT HAPPY COME FIGHT LAH!”

wa lan…damn pissed with that guy, we wanted to go beat him up after the match but….in the end, hammenath showed true sportsmanship and in the end, beat greenridge 19-21 in the final set, so we let the noob off. my emotion was as if we won the world cup. i didn’t really have the face to face hammenath, I lost to 2 shorties…..damn youfu….but I don’t really blame him….I blame myself for being so incompetent, if I was pro enough, we would have won, I blame only myself…

then got on the bus, we all kept saying,” COMMONWEALTH IS THE BEST! WE ROCK!” we got back to school, and some of us played a little badminton, I teamed up with youfu, i trained his service, and now its quite okay…

we won 3-2…yes…I underestimated greenridge….luckily we won…

OKAY, for this week, I’M GONNA TRAIN LIKE NEVER BEFORE IN THE GYM, AND HOPEFULLY, WE’LL BEAT FUHUA AND HONG KAH……

but now…I have to worry about homework….you can’t imagine how much hw i have….. sian sia….

and now…I get only 20 views to my blog a day….used to be 100 a day….hiya…sian ah…..since this is the case….I think I’ll stop posting for awhile….

okay….nitez…